realization!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever tried to calm yourself by saying -"what i just realized is just crap! and i do not believe it even though it sounds reasonable,becoz this realization may just ruin the progress I've been making." Thats exactly what happens when you are forced into tuning your brain to the so called reasonable and true realization that jolts you back to reality!!!! It might be about anything-Love ,job,family,career,husband,wife or even the great time you had with your partner last night! just anything.......... But the realization that hurts the most is the one which we know is true and do not want to accept it just because it may crumble down the huge palace of cards you have been building on the foundation of lies and cementing with your own sweet misconceptions..... Why then?? Why do we start fantasizing about something without even giving time to it,without even giving time to yourself,without judging or scrutinizing where it might lead you to?????? I think thats because we rush ourselves into it thinking of it to be our one and only and the last opportunity to make things right. We believe in god but do not believe that he will actually bless us with something we deserve,and set out on getting what we want ourselves in a jiffy! that 'JIFFY' gets us into shit load of trouble .... We are not patient enough,we do not even have time to blink,grab all you can get,even if it hurts your hands while doing so. I hope you are getting my metaphor here.. I am one of you guys, i just realized that the dream i wanted to live was based on something I thoroughly,mark my words,thoroughly misinterpreted. Its not my fault though,its the competitive times. Come on- you think i could have afforded to let go off of something that promising? Not at all. I grabbed it,and in the process made my dream believe that it was being seen by the right eyes. Gave a reason to my dream to dream about me. why am i talking so complicated- come on how else do you think i will be able to make all of you understand about my complicated times ? Avril Lavigne must have taken my inspiration when she wrote her lyrics! If by this time you havent already guessed what am talking about, let me make it easier for you- I JUST REALISED I HAVE SELECTED A COMPLETELY OPPOSITE KIND OF A PERSON TO SPEND MY LIFE WITH,THAN WHAT I THOUGHT ABOUT! Can you beat that crap????????? i know people do it all the time,but why? isn't the existing list of mistakes in front of our eyes enough for us to learn ,study and understand what can happen if we rush into things? I guess not. And let me tell you ,this ain't the first time. thats pretty amusing isnt it? well its not,but i feel it is. every person who goes through it must have thought about it. how can somebody be so stupid to repeat this 3rd time in a row. but am glad its a better situation than an earlier two,atleast this guy loves me a lot. so thats that. i hope my blog helped you realise something today!!!!!!!!